Chapter 19
Chapter 19
19. A Decision
KIAN
I ran my hand through my hair knowing I was only fucking it up, but I had no idea what overcame me earlier, the urge to kiss her… I was pacing my main office, although I had meant to be planning for the upcoming summit
Morgana… Fuck I hated it.
‘Did you hate it? Or are you just being a dick because she refused you, just because you have an ego that’s way too big?’ Thanatos’s snide fuck of a voice came.
‘Have I ever told you that I fucking can’t stand you at times?’ I shot back.
‘Yeah, plenty of times, but too bad for you because I’m just a part of you, so just the way you can’t stand me – I’m sure many people can’t stand you.’ He tossed back at me smugly. 1
Fucking asshole…
‘I think our mate is – besides being smart, beautiful and sexy – very intelligent and compassionate.’ He added.
‘Intelligent? She fucking jumped from a window without even thinking of the fucking consequences. There’s nothing smart about that. She fucking stood up to you when you know the chances were high that she could have been killed’
‘Well, maybe she is a little… brash and reckless, but she is smart and compassionate.’ He persisted.
I snorted. Yeah, fucking smart at being a sassy little she-devil…
An incredibly sexy one… The plan was one night… but would it be enough?
No.
I dropped onto my chair, sighing. There was so much crap with those attacks, the upcoming summit, Cain … The guards who had kept an eye on him said he had slipped away today for a short while. I couldn’t really post more guards to keep an eye on him, I couldn’t have him know, besides if he was up to something, I wanted them to catch him out.
It might be ideal to put my Deltas to watch him… But that would mean leaving Morgana unguarded…
‘Are you worried she’ll run or that something might happen to her?’ Thanatos remarked.
Both. I didn’t even need to reply, he fucking knew that. I took a deep breath; I think I needed a fucking rin…
An hour later, I was on my way back. My body was covered in a layer of sweat and my pants sat low on my hips. Someone passed me a cold bottle of water and I gulped it down before tossing it back, I was almost at the castle when I was stopped.
“Kian.” Sage’s voice came, making me look up.
I looked at her, the sun shining down on her. Despite the fact that I had always thought she was beautiful, I mean, she still was, but there was none of that interest in looking her over or wanting to be around her that I had once had
“What is it?” I asked coldly.
“The summit… Are we making that announcement?” She asked, closing the gap between us. Her hand touched my abs, her face tilted up to mine.
A pout on her face that just wasn’t fucking natural…
I preferred Morgana’s height… It was ideal not to have to bend down to kiss her.
‘Not that you ever had a problem with the height difference before.’ Thanatos remarked. 1
I blocked him off, thinking of what she had just said. The announcement… The unspoken discussion that everyone wanted to see a fucking queen by my side…
I looked into Sage’s blue eyes.
“Let’s discuss this later.” I said, about to walk off when she grabbed my arm. My eyes flashed and I turned my gold glare at her.
She let go instantly.
“Sorry… But Kian, we can’t keep putting it off.” She said, her hand now going to my shoulder, her breasts brushing against my arm.
I headed inside, not wanting anyone to hear us.
“They just want to see a Luna by your side. I’m already doing that job, it’s just a formality, nothing will change between us. We’re friends too.” She said the moment the door to my quarter of the castle shut behind us.
Her arms snaked around my neck and I frowned, looking down at her. It’s true… She was already doing the job of a Luna… Announcing her as my official fiancé would get a lot of people off my back… Not to mention, satiate Cain’s curiosity towards Morgana. Walls had ears and he had been asking around about her… I tilted my head, looking down at her.
“You’re correct.” I frowned.
She looked surprised before smiling in relief.
“Perfect. It’s the best thing to do.” She said softly, placing a kiss on my chest.
Morgana flashed through my head and I pulled out of her hold.
“There’s something else that’s worrying me Kian.. What the vampire did to one of our men… Maybe you need to lower the dose of blood you are giving her, it’s clear she’s strong. God knows who else she may hurt.” Sage said.
Anger flared inside of me and I growled menacingly.
“What I give to her or don’t is none of your fucking concem, Sage.”
“Baby… I get that, relax… I love you, Kian… and it hurts to see that you have an interest in this woman…”
“So it wasn’t fucking concern about our people, but jealousy?” I asked coldly.
She looked hurt but simply sighed softly, kissing my shoulder.
“It’s been days and you haven’t even come to me…” She whispered, locking her arms around me tightly.
I frowned deeply.
“Don’t give her too much importance, she’s nothing.” I said, despite how bitter those fucking words were o n my lips. From NôvelDrama.Org.
“Is she? No other woman has gone to your room, Kian… I know you have other women, but none in your room. It’s been so long and you haven’t even called me here.” She said, running her hands up my waist.
“She is nothing to me.” I repeated firmly.
‘Who are you convincing, her or yourself?’ Thanatos’s quiet voice came before I slammed the walls back u
If they wanted fucking proof…
“She really is no one to me, Sage. You will be my Luna, worry more about the wellbeing of our people. As for the guard… he tried to fucking assault an Omega, Morgana only protected her. I’ve fucking killed him… But I wish I had asked him a few questions before I let my anger take over…. It’s been at the back of my fucking mind, I wonder if he did hurt others…”
She looked shocked at that, but I was too lost in thought. I needed to do a thorough sweep and let every fucking man under my reign know that I will not tolerate anything of the sort…
“Are you sure? I don’t think vampires-”
My eyes flashed and I turned back towards her, reaching out. I gripped her chin tightly, my anger seeping through me like a poison, ready to take over completely.
“Are you saying I’m lying? Or that I fucking don’t know what happened?” I hissed.
“No, Kian, never. I’m just worried that she’s brainwashing-” She began breathlessly.
“Get out.” I hissed.
“Kian please.” She whimpered.
“OUT!” I thundered. She flinched at my tone. My alpha command was absolute, and she lowered her head i n submission.
Placing her hand tenderly on my chest for a second before she turned and left.
I hated people telling me what to do or acting like I don’t fucking know shit… I do what the fuck I want to d o. I turned around, slamming my fist into the table that stood near me, splintering it into pieces.
‘She never used to piss you off… Why so defensive, Kian?’ Thanatos said quietly.
I didn’t want to answer that… The control of my emotions was slipping, and I hated losing in anything…
One vampire woman was not going to step into my life and destroy the person I am. I was the ultimate fucking Alpha, one who had to always be in control. No matter what.
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Night had fallen and I had told everyone I did not want to be disturbed, deciding to do some work in the privacy and silence of my own place. I kept glancing at the time, and I knew I was waiting for Morgana to retum home. After what happened earlier, I didn’t even want to face her… Yet at the same time, I wanted t o see her.
When my Delta signalled they were coming and that her day had gone by fine, she had behaved, I felt satisfied. At least she wasn’t causing me trouble… Women…
‘Yeah, it’s just women who are so fucking annoying. I mean, you’re not high maintenance at all…’ Thanatos added sarcastically.
What the fuck did I ever do to get a fucking dip shit with a mouth on him as a wolf?
‘Karma, you get what you are. Now stop fucking being a grump, grab our mate and let’s put mini Kian to use.’ He ordered. 1
I hated it when he referred to my dick as that… Did he and Morgana have nothing else to refer to me as? Baby Alpha, pup, little… Fucking idiots… And no, I was not going to do that.
Although it was the primal instinct that coursed through me every time I saw her, all I wanted was to fuck her, I also had to remember she was not a fucking plaything. More than that, she didn’t want me. Not yet anyway, but that was going to fucking change soon…
I stood up and walked out of my office and down the hall. I stood at the top of the stairs, arms crossed, watching as she entered, before Oliver left, shutting the door behind him.
She looked as fucking radiant as ever. Undoing her hair from its tie, she shook it out, letting her long black hair cascade down her back. From her round breasts to her tiny waistline that I could wrap my hands around completely, she was fucking gorgeous. If one thing the moon Goddess did right was at least give m e a mate that was fucking ravishing…
Years back, when I thought I’d find my mate, I had this image in my head of how my mate would look
ana was so much more than that… I doubted there was another woman on the entire fucking planet that could even hold a candle to her beauty… Her plump pouty lips and those high cheekbones… She had been chiselled to perfection.
She stopped running her fingers through her hair as if sensing me watching her.
Our eyes met and suddenly the silence felt deafening, I didn’t need to read minds to know that the same fucking memory was in both our minds. What happened earlier between us…
Suddenly, the tension between us was too fucking much…