Chapter 340
Chapter 340
After a moment of silence, I decided to tell him the truth.
When I mentioned a checkup, Ronan immediately understood what I was referring to. The light in his eyes dimmed as soon as the words came out of my mouth. After a long pause, he finally smiled at me again.
“I was just about to go to the hospital. Hop on. I’ll drive you there.” As Ronan was speaking, he had already gotten down from his car. He went over to the passenger seat and opened the door for me.
“It’s okay. I can get there by myself.”
It was clear to me by the look of sadness in Ronan’s eyes that he hadn’t totally moved on. That was one of the reasons I avoided getting too close to him.
The door had been opened for me by Ronan when I turned down his offer. He frowned and glanced at me as if he was a little let down.
“What’s the problem? I’m only offering you a ride since I’m also on my way. Do you have to avoid me like that? Are you really so afraid of me?” Ronan spoke softly. Even so, it was loud enough to sense his disappointment.
I sighed in exasperation. I didn’t know what to say. I wasn’t afraid of Ronan. I just didn’t want him to feel upset because of me. Every time I looked at his sad eyes, I felt terrible.
“I didn’t mean that. I was just…” Ronan kept staring into my eyes as I opened my mouth and tried to think of something to say.
“All right, I know what you’re trying to say. You don’t need to say it. I was just kidding.” Ronan unknowingly let out a cynical smile. Seeing him in this manner brought up memories from the past.
I was stunned. Ronan remained patiently at the door, waiting for me to get into the car. Eventually, I made my way over to him.
While I was in Ronan’s car, I felt uncomfortable being in an enclosed space with him.
Ever since I got together with Michael, my feelings for Ronan have changed. We didn’t argue at all during this time. It was as if we were trying to keep the atmosphere down on purpose. However, by doing it purposefully, the awkwardness was made worse.
“Why did you drive a different car today? What happened to your flashy Ferrari?”
For the whole trip, neither of us spoke a word. As a result of my desire to avoid further awkwardness, I spoke up.
“I just thought switching my car would switch my mood.” Ronan spoke faintly. Although he didn’t say anything specific, it felt to me that he was talking about our situation.
“Don’t you think this silver sports car suits me better since it looks more depressing?” Ronan looked at me after I stopped talking. I could tell from his eyes that he was smiling, but he didn’t truly mean it.
To the people around him, Ronan appeared to be depressed. The once-vibrant young man had long vanished. When comparing him today to before, he had undergone a major transformation. He matured a lot more, but his smile lost a lot of its radiance.
And it was because of me that he turned into someone like that.
“Do you still mind me being together with Michael?”
Before I turned to face Ronan, I had been silent for quite some time. I couldn’t help myself but ask him this question over and over again. All I ever wanted for Ronan was to return to the way he used to be.
“I’d be lying if I said I didn’t mind. However, as long as you’re happy and Michael is able to give you the happiness you desire, I won’t mind.”
As far as I knew, Ronan was the one who had been looking out for me this whole time. I had found my other half. My only hope was for him to do the same soon.
Ronan opened the back door for me as soon as we arrived at the hospital so that I could skip the line and head straight to my checkup.
Before he bumped into me, I had no idea if Ronan wanted to come to the hospital. However, he was right outside the door when I went in for my appointment, doing nothing but waiting.
There were a few pregnant women waiting outside last night when I got out of the ultrasound room. I overheard them whispering about how handsome my husband was.
Ronan was, of course, the husband they were referring to. For a moment, I was a little embarrassed as we had already developed an uncomfortable relationship between us. I felt even more twisted in my heart when people misunderstood the situation.
On the contrary, Ronan’s mood improved as a result of their conversation.
Ronan was following right behind me as I made my way to the elevator. I had to stop and stare at him because I couldn’t hold my emotions in any longer.
“I’m done with my checkup. I appreciate you taking me to the hospital today. If there isn’t anything else, I shall make a move.”
Despite the fact that I was thanking Ronan with my words, I wanted him to quit following me. We didn’t have a good relationship. Hence, I’d feel even more awkward if he kept following me.
“Since I’m here and I have nothing else to do, let me take you home.” Ronan decided to join me in the elevator as soon as I entered it.
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I sighed exasperatedly as I stared at his face. I was confident he did it on purpose. He only wanted the opportunity to spend more time with me.
“It’s fine. I’ll leave on my own. It’ll be difficult for you to send me home.” I insisted on declining Ronan’s offer since it was inappropriate for us to be so close, given our current relationship.
“I’m just offering you a ride home. You don’t have to be so adamant about rejecting my offer. We are, after all, friends. Simply think of it as a friend helping a friend.”
Ronan’s eyes began to lose their sparkle. He was clearly hurt by my decision to reject him. Despite this, he refused to let me go and insisted on sending me home.
“Ronan—”
“Please don’t constantly turn me down. I’m aware of your concerns. Don’t worry. I will not ruin your relationship with Michael. All I want to do is to keep an eye out for you.” My words were interrupted by Ronan before I had a chance to finish. A sad gaze flashed across his pair of sparkling eyes.
As far as I could tell, I was supposed to say no. However, my heart broke every time I saw his sorrowful eyes. Ronan’s sadness seemed to stem only from my actions.
Ronan had always treated me well. It was just unfortunate that he had feelings for the wrong person. He shouldn’t have liked me from the start because I was already in a complicated relationship with Michael at the time.
“Let’s go then.” I was convinced in the end. I spoke with a dropped head as if I didn’t want to.
I couldn’t help but sigh in frustration once more. In the end, Ronan had to come up with the solution on his own. Any effort I made to convince him would be in vain otherwise. Besides that, my rejection would just intensify his heartbreak.
I then entered Ronan’s car. He might have felt the same way about the awkwardness of the situation, so he turned up the music to make it more bearable.