Chpater 83
Putting on some music I sat on my window seat. The street was quiet tonight, peaceful. The storm had well and truly passed. "He wants to take me out. He's not busy anymore. What do I wear?". Lana came bursting through my door in a state.
I started laughing. I had never seen her like this over a boy before and there I thought she wasn't that interested in him.
"Stop laughing and help me find something cute". Pulling the doors open to my closet she started throwing clothes everywhere.
"You need to calm down and do not even think about touching my red bottoms". I had been ranting about a pair of louboutin's since I was fifteen and my gran being the gran that she is bought them for my eighteenth birthday. I hadn't even wore them yet. "Have you wore them?". She asked holding one up.All content © N/.ôvel/Dr/ama.Org.
"Put them down". I said holding up my hands. Those shoes were expensive and still to this day I don't know how she was able to afford them.
"Help me find something to wear please". She groaned pulling out a black dress with lace sleeves. Another one I had bought and had yet to wear. "Oh I like this". She grinned holding it against her body.
"Where is he taking you?". I asked as she began to strip out of her clothes.
"Dinner I think I didn't ask, should I ask?". Slipping the dress over her body she looked at herself in the mirror. "That's never going to zip is it. You're so tiny compared to me".
"Maybe best to find out where he's taking you first and then we can find you something to wear". Walking to where she stood I pulled on the zipper. "It fits perfectly". I smiled. "I'm nervous Leah and I'm never nervous when it comes to boys. I have this knot in my stomach". Smoothing her hands over the dress she looked at me through the mirror. "You like him". I grinned.
"I've liked a lot of boys before and never felt this way. Why do I feel like I'm going to be sick".
"Maybe you like Pete that little bit more". I laughed when I caught her facial expression.
"I doubt that". She sighed. "But it's weird, this feeling is creeping me out".
"I think I'm falling in love with him". I blurted out. I had to tell someone. The feelings I had were crazy. I know it's only been a short time but my feelings were real. Realer than anything I've ever felt before and I was terrified.
"How do you know?". She whispered. That wasn't what I was expecting her to say. Usually it would be a cheeky one liner or something to make me laugh.
"I think about him all the time, I feel like my heart is going to burst. The way he makes me feel when we're together is magical. The excitement, the butterflies, the rush he gives me".
"Is it the same as what you felt with Tommy?".
Shaking my head no I gave her a small smile. Being with Jake was like a breath of fresh air. Everything with him was easy. He was interested in my opinion, he didn't laugh at what I had to say. He liked me for me, he wasn't trying to make me someone I wasn't. "Completely different". I whispered. "Now I realise just how bad my relationship with Tommy was. It's just a shame it took for someone else to step in and show me".
"You know I love you don't you?". She asked.
"Yes why?".
"No Leah like you're not only my best friend you're my sister. You're my person and you have been since we were 6".
"Besties since day one". I grinned.
"He cheated on you". She whispered.
I thought as much but again he made me think it was all in my head. How could I have been so stupid? I wasn't a bad girlfriend, I gave him everything.
"I thought as much". Grabbing my phone from my nightstand I started to delete everything that was related to him. He wasn't in my life anymore and what she had just told me was enough to delete him.
"He didn't deserve you Leah".
"You're right he didn't". I wasn't angry that she didn't tell me. If she told me I probably wouldn't have believed her. "I thought I loved him but it's not a patch on what I feel for Jake".
"Can I burn these?". She grinned holding up the photos that used to be stuck to my mirror.
"Do what you want with them and take this as well". Pulling the ring off my finger I chucked it to her. It's crazy how you think you know what love is and then someone new comes along and shows you what it's meant to be.
"How about after dinner we go to the beach and we burn these, we remove him from your life and we forget about him?".
"You're not missing your date". I smirked.
"Girls dinner is ready". My gran called from the bottom of the stairs.
"Go, you better tell her you're not staying for dinner". I smiled. As soon as she shut my bedroom door a sob fell from my lips. I had doubts about him cheating I just never thought he actually would. I also had no idea why I was crying. I should be angry. Catching my reflection in the mirror I shook my head. I was better than that, better than him. He was my past and I wasn't going to dwell on it. Wiping at my eyes I glanced at my phone as it vibrated.
'Can't wait to see you tonight babe'
He was my now.